I puff tonight.
I puff for a reason.
A reason for cause.
A caused for what had happen.
I wasnt mad with you,just really upset.
You left me,leaving a big confusion in my head.
But good news is,I have forgotten the matter.
I rather think you and me are just doing great :D
Love you.

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Thank you for everything.
You taught me alot and make me realised that life is just like a heaven's touch.
You made me laugh,
Walk me through the desert storm,
Treat me to stuffs,
Laugh like theres no tomorrow,
EVERYTHING!
You are simply amazing to be with.
Like a pyramid,we will stand up tall one day.
:D

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Wassup world.
Another day,another challenge.

Heres wishing you a 45th dead month.
Recently,I met your ex.
And the thoughts of the past came flooding my mind.
Didnt know it could cut me off from what I am feeling.
I was happy for a moment and the next thing,this sadness ate me up.
You know,this might be a good news to you cos I have taken up a step foward,to move on.
Well,you should know how much pain it took me to move on.
I still living in doubt if I should move on.
I dun ever wanna leave you somehow,but I know I have to.
And I just realised that,without you in my mind could actually mean happiness for me.
But I choose not to.
We were so long,I cant just leave it this way.
You and me,were so strong before.
Now what happen to us?
Why did this happen girl?
You forgot me too soon.
You left me dangling there and went with another man.
I know you didnt want it to happen this way,but it was really a living hell for me.
Even though we used to argue,it was alright.
I just didnt want us to be this way.
Its very saddening and tiring to always put a brave front to others and inside its very painful.
The day you walk out,was the day I died inside.
Well,life has to go on.
Fortunately,I have some live savers for me.
-My Crew
-La familia
-Jadags
Without them,I think it would be possible to lift a smile to my face.
Right now,thinking back,I regretted everything cos there are no sweet memories.
Everyday,I think you be fine everyday going smoothly in life.
I think about you,about us and its just a dream.
Somehow,I feel a bit happier that I took a small steps.
And putting the next step is the another challenge I will face.
I shall end here okay.
You take care,I love you.

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18th July,it was my birthday.
My only wish was that I could have you back.
I only wanted 1 simple present:You,lynette.
But no,I didnt get it.
I am 18 now.
For 2 years,you didnt celebrate with me.
Its doesnt feel comfortable at all without you by my side.
I no longer know how it feels like to hold a hand or even kiss.
I miss your warmth.
This rainy season,when I was cold,I only wish I could feel your arms around me.
I need you Lynette.
Why did you left just like that?
What happen to the promise you told me?
You got me living with no air.

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Hey there dear.
How you been?
Its been a rainy season.
Hope you doing fine.
You know,its been 44month and you dun seem to realise it.
13,what does it mean to you?
Nothing right.
I am still longing for you.
As I survive another day thinking about you,I wonder when does it end.
But I am still quite happy at the fact,that I think of you every single day.
Its impossible to let a day pass without you in my mind.
You came to my life and threw me away in the end.
Now,I am just waiting for you.
You told me we could be in a relationship in the future.
When will it be?
After my death?
Fuck the world.
I dun seem to get it.
Still,I will love you like I have always.
Never stop lovin you.
Okay,I end here.
You tc love.
Muack,love you.

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Hi love.
How you been?
I hope you are doing fine my dear.
Things are going quite rough for me nowadays.
Things are never okay without you.
Today is our 43rd month.
You may forget it.
But I remember it always.
You are a part of me.
I can never get you out of my head.
Your image comes to my mind the first thing,and the last thing.
Thats all I know.
I miss you so much.
We have msg each other for almost 2weeks plus.
I duno why,but I am just scared to msg you.
So I am just waiting for you to text me.
Why dont you text me?
Have you really for real,forgotten me totally?
I still love you like I do.
I am still waiting for the day you are mine again.
Theres a feeling,that my name will not exist anymore in your world.
You and him are almost going to be 1year.
I flare at the thought of you and him but I am controlling myself.
Cos I know things wont do any good and that nothing will changes.
God,please grant me a miracle.
I swear,I wanna be with you forever till the end.
Lynette,I just wanna hear from you.
I miss you alot like heaven knows.
Text me soon k.
Please.
I love you.I love you.I love you.I love you.
Muack,the vow.

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Hello again.
Seem that I been blogging not so these few weeks.
It does not mean I have move on.
It just that,its just too painful to describe my feelings.
I have been keeping to myself.
In my heart,I just wanna tell you how much I miss you and I love you.
You might not be suprised of what I am feeling or what.
Everyday,your face appear in my head each time I woke up.
Every now and then,I check my hp for your msg.
But no,its nothing.
Songs play through the speakers which speak of us in the past.
And how I long to be back to where we were.
Never letting go.
Sadly,things happen and we drifted apart.
Sometimes,I ask myself what are you doing,how you are doing,and all.
But I am not able to answer this question without you.
I wish you were single and that I could take you back in my arms.
But no,I musnt be selfish.
Your happiness is my happiness.
Things cant always go in my way.
Lynette,I admit I did you wrong and that everything was my fault.
I can prove to you that I changed for the better and learnt my lesson.
All I ask from you is,can you give me one last golden chance?

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